Final Piece

Philip Deal

When we’re done for good,  

we leave behind an unopened box 

of colored pencils, two brand new tubes 

of cadmium red, 

a set of new brushes

bought at full price, 

a tube filled with 

delicate silk paper, never tried. 

This is not waste.

This is our final piece:

Optimism.  

Enduring Beasts

Gavin Bourke

Landed into the midst,

ensuing chaos.

Exaggerated connections,

heart-sink presence.

Cynicism and entitlement

Severed from the natural, human relationship.

Emotional shrapnel inside the urn,

carried by the pallbearer.

No longer to be ventriloquized, 

alcohol seeping through the cracks

of the last few generations.

Induced Alzheimer’s in a mother,

cared for by her unmarried daughter.

He walked through the working life,

causing scars to bleed,

closer to savagery than those

in the vicinity.

A broken father stood in a doorway,

in the darkness, for over 20 years.

Carried the anger, through the social world,

harnessed by Valium’s touch,

carrying inherited darkness that

never was hers.

From father to son and so on,

throughout each new generation,

traits in common.

Knowingly and unknowingly bringing

the weight of unwarranted aggression

to bear on every situation.

Dysfunctional frameworks,

paradigms passed down from the rotting wood

of successive staircases.

Selfish emotional terrorism,

oft rewarded by the modern organization.

Emphasis on cute bureaucrat,

the enemy of statute.

The movement of the body and eyes,

mismatching language.

The departures of form from semantics

under well-dressed hides.

Privilege without responsibility.

Deeper into valleys of narcissism,

schisms of aggression, never contented,

mottled mind.

Couldn’t live with this anymore,

a father and blackening suns.

Barking in hallways,

through watering eyeballs,

with persistent rancor at everyone

and no one in particular.

Left blood on autumn leaves,

results of peculiar anger

and personalities disordered.

Ethanol breath,

condensation around brass pendulums.

Fell like the blackest slugs,

from stalactites to stalagmites

in darkened caves,

through the generations

on his father’s side.

In chain mail,

draining those in close proximity.

Killings with pens and phones and keystrokes,

the black filth of back-office politics.

Twisted in online abysses,

morbid self-interest, records amiss,

the stock in trade

of negative diatribes.

Born with

Philip Deal

Flat feet repaired by

pediatric shoes,

bowed legs straightened by

a heavy metal brace,

buck teeth reshaped by wire.

Where would I be without medicine? I ask my wife.

Single, she says.

One piece of broken heel, removed,

two fingers, snapped in games, surgically realigned.

A double hernia, held in place by gauze,

glasses for reading,

prescription cream to make my skin stop itching.

Six sets of stitches

in my head,

one daily pill for stomach acid,

another for a thyroid glitch

that runs in the family.

Four steroid injections

for joints that won’t unbend,

ibuprofen every time I decide to be a runner again.

Where would I be if I had been born 200 years ago?  

Dead, my wife says.

I laugh, and throw out my back.

Aunt Ida’s Apple Pie

Jeffrey Hantover

Spectacle lynchings were preserved in photographs that were made into postcards sold openly in stores and city newspapers, sent through the mail, and presumably displayed in homes.

Bob,

Me on a postcard! Right there in front. Grinning like a cat with a bowl of cream. My new bowler hat and my red tie, though you can’t see the color. I’m not bragging, but I tie a good knot. My grandfather taught me. We sure were having a swell time. Show it to Connie—boy, will that give her a thrill. I didn’t have to ask Mr. Jameson for the day off. He closed the shop. Gosh, the whole town was there.

Your pal, Dexter

My dear Gertie,

We were packed tight as a barrel of salt fish. Shoulder to shoulder, you couldn’t move barely an inch. Just a sea of hats as far as the eye could see. Horace lifted up Constance on his shoulders so she could get a better view. I am somewhere in the back with the ladies in their bonnets. We didn’t want to get our going-to-church dresses crushed. I wore my Sunday best. Horace thought it bad taste not to. I got me a nice souvenir booklet with photos and postcards.

Fondly, Helen

Dear Sis

Hope your lumbago has not been acting up. We’re all fine here. Get your magnifying glass out and look for your nephew Charlie there in the right-hand corner. He’s wearing his going-to-meeting hat—the one he keeps special for Easter services. He does love that straw hat. Kind of makes him look extra special handsome, don’t you think? Quite a crowd. Simon Lancaster, who runs the print shop on Elm, took the photo and printed these cards. Selling them for a quarter. Says he’s going to share the money with the Advent Methodist Ladies’ Auxiliary. I’m not holding my breath. That man squeezes his pennies till they holler. Running out of space. Hope you can read my tiny writing.

Love, Betty

Dear Aunt Ida,

I baked an apple pie before we headed into town for the excitement. It came out real good. Not as good as yours, but pretty good. I know, your secret is your secret. We did a double grace thanking God for his bountiful blessings and for our dear Ida for the best apple pie in all the world. We can’t wait to see you at Thanksgiving and sit around the table holding hands and bowing our hands in prayer for the blessings of our Creator.

Your niece, Beth

Lettie,

You can’t miss Glenda, right there in the front in the dress you bought her for her birthday. It is one of her favorites. She thinks herself quite the young lady at the ripe old age of eleven. Lou Smithers, our neighbor down the road, is standing right next to her in his straw boater—he is quite the looker. Twenty-five cents for one postcard seems like highway robbery, but it was a day worth remembering, and our Glenda smack-dap in the middle of it all.

Lizzie

Dear Lloyd,

“Service Above Self.”

Quite a crowd and a great many of us Rotarians turned out, didn’t we? Respectable men of good character have to stand up and be counted. Just a reminder that the next luncheon meeting of the Rotary Club will be held on Tuesday the 17th at 12:15 pm at the Sinclair Hotel. The featured speaker of the day will be Prof. Eugene Slater of Springfield College, who will speak on “The Promise of Eugenics and the Future of America.” Hope to see you there.

Your brother in service, R.J.

Dad,

I’m worn ragged, limp as an old dish rag, but business couldn’t be better. I’ve been in the studio ten days and nights. Gulping black coffee and eating slices of white bread slathered in butter. I’ve lost count of how many I’ve made. For sure, thousands. Twenty-five cents and folks can’t get enough of them. I hear they’re selling them all over the state. A friend in Terre Haute called to say they were in the windows of all the drugstores. Set up my tripod in a good place right smack in front of the tree. Give mom my love and tell her no more work in the garden till she feels better.

Love, Simon

Myrtle,

I tell you it was one special night. Hundreds of Kodaks clicking—you would have thought it was cicadas chirping on a summer evening in August. Owen Jr. hollered himself hoarse. But the wind was blowing the smoke everywhere. I had to wash my dress to get the smell of the smoke out. That’ll teach me. Next time I won’t wear a new dress. You and Dick come visit soon.

Love, Dot

P.S. Pardon if I brag, but Junior got first prize in the “I am an American” American Legion essay contest and won himself a $25 savings bond. One proud mother here.

Dear Margie,

Quite the crowd. They ran an extra train to handle us all. I packed ham-and-cheese sandwiches for Paul and the kids. Came back and we all fell straight to bed. A fellow had set up a printing press right there, and we got ourselves a bunch of cards before we left. Can you believe I’m going back to town tomorrow? It’s the annual Golden Rule Sale when all the downtown merchants reduce their prices. Hoping for some real bargains for the kids.

Love to all, Sis

Tom,

That’s what happens when they annoy our young girls.

Ben

Dr. Abraham Washington,

Stay in your place. We are watching you.

The Committee

Angelus Novus

James Reidel 

The mild winter, the weak frosts, and an old, stale flu shot that still dispels the aches that flutter about my temples, the fits of it’s-nothing, my dizzy spells, and the like—they slackened the healthy fear of getting sick, that last fear on which today’s gods and empires would stand and fall. For the first time in years, there were no snow days nor any cancellations to heed any higher power than our own impulses. On the brown hillsides where the best sledding had always been in previous years, what good was that breakneck desire of the downhill run? When there was at last a dusting, every attempt suffered the halt of the exposed grass. What snow fell was barely worth the trouble of walking back to the top when it meant scooting like crabs all the way to the bottom again. And the tracks of our disappointment just scattered home, leaving trails of slush spots in the trampled turf. Sure, children still coughed and sneezed, but they did so into the crooks of bare arms instead of long sleeves. No one wears winter coats anymore—nor galoshes like they once did, with those black metal clasps found on no other footwear, which you had to press down with your thumb to stay put. Some of us, a dwindling few, an elephant’s memory really, will remember the pull-tabs, like hard light switches that bit the fingers, and the trouble they gave when you could just leave them all undone, with the black rubber uppers flapping as we ran to where we are now—to where there is no real effort to the season, no caveat, to where other things are taken seriously and no snow angel’s impression would like to stay. 

A New Language

Kaitlinn Estevez

Hold the V in forgive, find out how far its valley goes

Become a builder to carve it out, turn it over

make it the roof of our home

Bend my body to mold to its shape

making me easier to cradle

Remember, when hiding, its arrowhead

will jab me until I look

It’s only smooth when it hangs in my mouth

Sounding it out, hitting teeth then lip, hums

                                    splitting syllables, the point to a needle that hems

I will hold it here, hidden in my cheek

                                    for as long as you need